Wow... its been a ong time since ive updated.

Nothing too much is really going on. I'm just sitting here watching Jerry McGuire reflecting on my do nothing day. I wish life was a little more exciting and I could stick to my list of things I want to accomplish. Im so effing unmotivated

I graduate tomorrow. May 27, 2005. I feel so old. Meh!

I'm going to be a big ball of tears tomorrow. I need to go out and get a camera. I'm going miss high school but hopefully I'll get out of my mode. I'm going to enjoy the summer.

I'll have plenty to keep me busy... 2 jobs, coaching cheer and plenty of road trips to be had.

This is my final mile stone in high school. It has come way too soon.

My phone is being a bitch again. I think I need a new one. It's saying no service constantly. I had service this morning and then all of a sudden it died on me. I hate my phone. I hopefully get my paycheck today so maybe I'll start saving for a new one.

I felt dizzy his morning. When I woke up I could barely walk and i had those little stars in my eyes...like the ones that you get after you've had a lot of pictures taken. My head felt light. Iono. It was a very different weird feeling. It could be that everyone in my house is getting sick. It's been a very slow and lazy day.

I need to get my portfolio done today. It needs to happen! OMG! I'm freaking out. I haven't even started my senior exhibition. I think I am going to cry. Maybe not. It's my own damn fault

I have 4 days of high school left... ever. For as much shit that goes on i am sincerely going to miss it. How many times in life will you have so many people to turn to, so many things to do, so many sporting events to go to and so much fun with your peers. This sucks.

Graduation is next week. Wow.

I never wanna grow up...If Michael Jackson didn't abuse the Peter Pan terminology so much i'd feel more comfortable comparing myself to tinkerbelle. Shes a fairy and she never has to grow up. She hangs out with pete and the lost boys. They chill out and never have to worry about anything except a damn pirate. Why can't I be in that world? I'd hate to toot my own horn but I think I'd look hot with wings. Besides, how kinkly would that be! lol. hahaha

Typing with nails isn't fun but yeah.

Prom was last night... Not the best dance ever but not really the worst. It had its high and low points. I must say though I dont think i made the right date decision. Oh well. I had a good time for the most part... 19 days till im done with school. I never thoughts that there would be a day I could say that. But wow. Time moves so fast.

In the words of Ludacris " I need to drink some prune juice and let (my) shit go." I need to put all the crap in my past behind me and just be chill with everyone. Like last night night i made peace with Ryan. So  yeah... that was cool.

I think i still do have feelings for him, because i can totally see me with him but at the same time i need to find someone who honestly wants to be me and cant wait to see me. And I need to feel the exact way about them. I'm so sick of getting treated like shit... guy after guy.... I mean if i deserve it, then fine... But I really don't think I'm a bad person or mean at that. Tell me if i'm wrong but yeah.

anyways... i think i looked cute. I did wanna you know... be lil miss sex kitten but i ended up looking more adorable and wholesome then anything. Oh well. I still looked awesome. And so did all my girls.. heather april nikki amanda ky. Everyone looked unbelievably gorgeous.

After prom i went to Nikki's bonfire. That was fun but i melted my shoes.... oops!